you can't drink without a fish

Sunday, October 01, 2006

It's been a while. For some reason in the last few months, even when I have felt inclined to write something in here I have been too lazy to actually sit and do so.

It's been a few weeks since arriving in California, and by extension a few weeks since I've seen a drop of rain. I had always heard that it's sunny pretty much every day in Southern California, but I think that I did not actually believe or comprehend it. The general concensus among the new people here is that, even if they don't find Irvine palatable, they still love the weather.

On the other hand, as the weeks pass, I am ever aware that I am missing my good old-fashioned Northeast autumn. I imagine that the leaves are beginning to turn back home. My parents have complained in the last couple of days that it's grown quite chilly. I envy them, and walk around every day here perceiving the marked absence of the smell of people beginning to burn their fireplaces around dusk on fall evenings.

I guess most people think I'm crazy, but I really miss bad weather. I went rollerblading at Newport Beach last week on the only mildly cloudly and cool day that we've had since I arrived. A middle aged man in a wetsuit with a surf board told me I'd come a long way and apologized for the weather, said that I should've gone the day before.

"No, today's perfect," I answered.

It's like something that "The Russian" said on a late episode of Sex and the City-- I like New York. It's honest. It doesn't wear a big, fake smile.

And it's so true. New York (among other places) isn't afraid to show its moody side. Sometimes it can be really fucking harsh with you. It can go days on end crying all over your designer t-shirt. You can freeze to death on your 30 minute walk to work or bake when Con Edison shuts the electricy off in your building so that the rest of the city won't have a blackout. New York is like someone an old, comfortable relationship, and I really appreciate that kind of honesty.

But a rainy day in New York is magic anyway. On a typical rainy fall weekend day, I'll wake up too late because the sun does not shine in your eyes. I know the weather without looking outside, from the distinct sound of tires rolling over wet pavement that accompanies normal traffic sounds. Perhaps I go with my room mate or meet a friend at Little Poland restaurant or Wavery diner for some eggs and french fries, none of us having taken the time to shower because of the crappy weather. Emily and Layla are smart and wear rubber boots. The bottom of my pants are wet and muddy.

I return home meaning to do homework but fall asleep instead. E! entertainment network might be playing in the background, and the next thing you know it's 6 or 7 o'clock and I've done nothing. It occurs to me that maybe I should stay in and work. After all, it's crappy outside.

But a rainy New York night following a rainy New York day is like the spring. While the streets were relatively bare during the day, you can tell around 8 or 9 o'clock that people want to peek their heads out of their little dens and step timidly into the world.

Sure, it's still raining, but we've been in all day and it's been so long since we've stayed in on a Saturday night we don' t even know what's on network television during this time slot any more. And from the look of the street lights and neon bar signs reflecting on the wet pavement, I know that there's romance and adventure to be had.

Sunday, April 02, 2006

And today's the day we've waited for.

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

*The Cartoons*

I have been presented with a really interesting problem over the past couple of days at work. Basically, we have been bombarded with emails concerning an NYU event to take place tonight; it is advertised as a dialogue regarding free speech and publication of cartoons portraying the Prophet Mohammad in Europe. However, they plan to display these cartoons at the event. The Islamic Center at NYU is in uproar and plans on holding a peaceful protest outside of the event as it takes place. More urgently, emails have been flying around the campus asking those in different positions of power to intervene and stop the club from posting the cartoons, not only as not to upset Muslims in the NYU community and beyond, but also certain unnamed wealthy Muslim benefactors of certain programs within the university.

President John Sexton's decision thus far has been to allow the club to post these cartoons. While I myself would never post these cartoons, I tend to agree with Sexton's stance on the matter.

The bottom line is, freedom of speech is indeed at issue here. The Muslim students, who support the DIALOGUE but not the display, have every right to protest outside of the event today, just as Muslims around the world had every right to protest the Danish cartoons so long as it was in a peaceful manner (which was not always the case.) Ideally, people culturally insensitive enough to diplay these cartoons would be moved to see the Muslims' side. However, I think that it is absolutely wrong to, in law, place a ban on their display. Academic freedom, as well as general freedom of speech, allows for this. Restricting it would set a dangerous precedent.

I tend to put this debate in the same perspective as the debate over abortion. My view on the matter is a highly legal one, maintaining that whether or not one believes in abortion personally, the act is allowed following interpretations of a number of Amendments allowing citizens to use/treat their bodies as they wish. It is for this reason, and not for the right or wrong of abortion, that is must remain legal.

On the same token, whether one believes that depicting the Prophet is right or wrong, we must realize that the freedom to make this depiction is guaranteed by law.

Still, it saddens me to think that this type of racism is more morally permissable than racism against any other group. If such offensive cartoons about another ethnic or religious group were allowed by news editors to be printed in the first place, I am certain that public outcy would cause those in charge to pull the cartoons from publication out of common decency. Clearly, this notion of what is right and wrong in treating people does not yet extend to treatment of the Muslim community.

But, common decency, unfortunately, cannot be mandated by law, but instilled in time with education.

Monday, March 20, 2006

Miranda: Why do I think living in Manhattan is so fantastic?
Carrie: Because it is.

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

A Stolen Survey.

This is a survery just for girls. This is likewise a survey that makes me wonder if I really am one.

01. Eyeliner or mascara? mascara. can't do eyeliner.
02. Louis Vuitton or Dooney and Bourke? who?
03. American eagle or hollister? uuh...
04. Dolce & Gabanna or Louis Vuitton? Dolce outfitted Carry nicely on Sex and the City...
05. Skirts or pants? usually pants
06. Socks or leggings? can't you wear both? what do you definise a 'legging'?
07. Hoodies or jackets? jackets
08. Heels or sneakers? aw, sneakers.. who am I kidding?
09. Straight or curly hair? CURLS... c'mon people...
10. Hoop or dangling earrings? dangling! huzzah!
11. Side bangs or one length? bangs don't really go with my look. but I like Molly's side bangs.
12. Gemma Ward or Adrianna Lima? who?
13. Your best color: green!
14. Victoria's Secret or Bath and Body Works? I don't do smelly things, except jasmine.
15. Smoothies or lattes? I find both to be a little bougie for my taste
16. Diet or regular sodas? diet coke, regular sprite
17. Water or daquiris? need there be a dichotomy there?
18. Pearls or diamonds? pearls by a very very long shot.
20. Mary Kate or Ashley Olsen? i vascillate
21. iPod or cell phone? dang I wish I owned an iPod
22. Friends or family? I don't distinguish between the two. friends are family, and family who don't act as friends I do not put too much thought into.
23. Lip gloss or chapstick? the lip gloss would not look good without the chapstick..
24. Manicure or pedicure? pedicure. it looks less weird when I am too lazy to take the polish off.
25. Mac or sephora? Mac
26. Tiffany's or Chanel? Tiffany. isn't it just Tiffany?
27. Love or peace? I don't see them as being separate
28. Sunglasses or purses? If I have to choose, I'd rather not have to carry my shit in my hands. That gets in the way of dancing/activities/food eating that happens while you're out walking around. So purse.

X what you have:
[ ] a tiffany's bracelet.
[ ] a Louis vuitton purse
[ ] a coach purse
[ ] anything dior
[X] a computer.
[ ] a cd player.
[ ] a stereo.
[ ] a spice girl cd.
[ ] a cosmo girl magazine.
[ ] a teddy bear.
[ ] a build a bear.
[ ] an American eagle purse.
[ ] hollister jeans.
[ ] a hot topic shirt.
[X] a cell phone.
[ ] an aeropostale shirt.
[ ] the mean girls dvd
[X] a TV in my room.
[ ] a big bed.
[ ] diamond earrings.
[X] a pearl necklace.
[ ] a graduation dress.
[X] a book. (many, many books.)
[ ] a myspace.
[ ] curious perfume. (is that a brand? or do you mean that my perfume is curious?)
[ ] g-unit sneakers.
[X] a black shirt. (I'm a New Yorker.)
[ ] abercrombie skirt
[ ] hollister skirt. (What is this hollister business all about?)
[X] converse. (naturally.)
[ ] diary or journal
[ ]pink nail polish (not so much)

Girl Knowledge:
Do you know exactly where the blush goes? No. I turn red enough on my own.
Would you say you know how to put on make up? Yes. That I do, if I do say so myself.
Do you know how to french braid? Yes but I don't have the patience.
Do you have a specific color of cover up or foundation you wear for your skin? Nope.
Do you wash your face at least once a day? Not so much.
Do you use an eyelash curler? Do I know how to use an eyelash curler?
Do you use water proof mascara? No, it tends to be really clumpy and dry.
How much do you pay for make up? I dunno... I think I more often find it around the house/apt.
Does toothpaste really help acne? It doesn't help acne, but it can quickly bring "the right kind of pimple" to a head.
How many times a day do you apply lipgloss? one, if that.

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Cookie Lady

Let me tell you about a woman who made my day.

I far more often shop in small amounts than I do in large ones when it comes to food. I'll do a "big shopping" where most of the good will last me for weeks and then in between stop by the market only to pick up a few things. I am often embarassed when I go to check-out because these "few things" often include a box of cereal, maybe a milk and juice, a microwavable dinner and always a box of cookies.

Today was one of those days. As I approached the check-out line with an instant lasagna-bake, two peach yogurts, roll of paper towel, and box of rainbow chocolate chip cookies in hand, I felt that I must look like a little kid. I was made to feel better only by the man standing in front of me who had ventured all the way through a huge supermarket for three 20 oz bottles of beer. The girl behind me was justified in being in check-out; she picked up a box of domino suger and one other baking good. Clearly she is making something special and just ran out of a couple of things.

Then I had a good chuckle: two people behind me was this very old woman. Seeing as I have almost no peripheral vision to my left, the only thing in her stack that caught my eye was her Starbucks brand bottled frozen coffee thing in mocha flaver, which I really like. Then I looked closer: frozen mocha drink, three cups of yogurt, a frozen dinner, and a box of cookies. I could tell already that I liked this old woman. I imagined that, even though I say that I will one day grow up and buy adult food, that I will eventually end up like this old woman. Except there's no way in hell that I will buy vanilla cookies, of course. I'm about the chocolate.

As if to accent the occurance, for some reason the checkout lady seemed really sad that I did not have a club card to get discounts on my purchases. So she started asking everyone in line if they had a club card. Most didn't.

You see, I'd really like a club card. They'd come in handy. I just never take the time to do it.

Finally the checkout lady pouted, loudly: "Ooooh! But those cookies are on sale!"

Suddenly, an outstretched hand bearing a club card. It was Cookies Lady, passing on the love one cookie at a time.

I looked her in the eye and thanked her sincerely after thanking the check-out lady for her efforts. "You know, it's really worth putting in a little time to get the card," gushed Cookie Lady, "I waited years before I finally got mine..."

May I always take the time to get the card, and to enjoy a chocolate chip cookie.

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Strange Times, My Dear

در اين بن بست

دهان‌ات را مي‌بويند
مبادا که گفته باشي دوست‌ات مي‌دارم.
دل‌ات را مي‌بويند

روزگار ِ غريبي‌ست، نازنين
و عشق را
کنار ِ تيرک ِ راه‌بند
تازيانه مي‌زنند.

عشق را در پستوی خانه نهان بايد کرد

در اين بُن‌بست ِ کج‌وپيچ ِ سرما
آتش را

به سوخت‌بار ِ سرود و شعر

فروزان مي‌دارند.
به انديشيدن خطر مکن.

روزگار ِ غريبي‌ست، نازنين
آن که بر در مي‌کوبد شباهنگام
به کُشتن ِ چراغ آمده است.

نور را در پستوی خانه نهان بايد کرد
آنک قصابان‌اند
بر گذرگاه‌ها مستقر
با کُنده و ساتوری خون‌آلود

روزگار ِ غريبي‌ست، نازنين
و تبسم را بر لب‌ها جراحي مي‌کنند
و ترانه را بر دهان.

شوق را در پستوی خانه نهان بايد کرد

کباب ِ قناری
بر آتش ِ سوسن و ياس

روزگار ِ غريبي‌ست، نازنين
ابليس ِ پيروزْمست
سور ِ عزای ما را بر سفره نشسته است.

خدا را در پستوی خانه نهان بايد کرد


In This Deadend

They smell your breath.
You better not have said, "I love you."
They smell your heart.
These are strange times, my dear...
And they flog
love
at the roadblock.
We had better hide love in the closet...
In this crooked dead end and twisting chill,
they feed the fire
with the kindling of song and poetry.
Do not risk a thought.
These are strange times, my dear...
He who knocks on the door at midnight
has come to kill the light.
We had better hide light in the closet...
Those there are butchers
stationed at the crossroads
with bloody clubs and cleavers.
These are strange times, my dear...
And they excise smiles from lips
and songs from mouths.
We had better hide joy in the closet...
Canaries barbecued
on a fire of lilies and jasmine,
these are strange times, my dear...
Satan drunk with victory
sits at our funeral feast.
We had better hide God in the closet.
-Ahmad Shamlu